Continue To Love The Vast Blue Sky

If i had not met you that day, then i would not have experienced that pain and sadness, and memories filled with tears, But, if i had not met you, i would also have not experienced that joy, excitement, and memories filled with tears, But... if i had not met you, i would also have not experienced that joy, excitement, preciousness, happiness, and the feeling of absolute happiness. I continue to love the vast blue sky ♥

Life Must Move On

 

Being happy, angry, sad, cry, crazy, in love etc.. is just normal for a teen. A teen as young as me, must make the world believe that they're proud of you . Life is too short to be unhappy. There's so many things to do to be a successful person in our future. I know how it feels to be hurt, I know how it feels to be unacceptable . I've been through lots of it. Mothers always give their children an advice "do not having a boyfriend if you're still young unless you're already finish studying". I used not to hear what my mom said. I used to ignore all my mom's advice. But, years after years, it makes me realize that it's just un-matured and so childish. I started to agree with what my mom said. And begin a new life. It is not too late for you to change a thing in your life to make your dream come true. Doesn't matter where you from, How old are you, just ignore the haters. Put your head up take a deep breath and smile. Because you deserve what you have. Never look back what already past because Life Must Move On forward.

With Love ~

The Day After Tomorrow

Alright, moving on , you guys probably wondering why do I keep on deleting my blog and post? First of all, I wanted to delete my blog and stop writing because I honestly don't really have time to update and I'm pretty much out of idea of what to talk about but then there's some of my readers out there told me not to stop writing and they gave me some motivation. I gotta say,I am flattered cause I don't expect there's anyone out there would read story of my life. So, I decided to continue writing since I've been writing when I was younger and why should I stop now since writing is one my way to actually expressed myself . Secondly,  I've read my first post in my old blog and I wrote "I'm starting fresh" but honestly I don't really get the chance to start fresh because my heart still holding to something and I don't think I could ever let go. Therefore, I'm not gonna plan anything for my life anymore cause I got sick of planning especially to something that doesn't work out . So,I'm gonna let everything flow and be spontaneous because we don't know what's gonna happen tomorrow or the day after tomorrow .

                                                                                                                                                                              With love ~

Affection In Teen's Life

No matter how old we are, we all needs affection.I know I'm young but I know love. When I was younger, I've always believe in love. Well, blame it all on the books and movies for keep my expectations high on love. As I grow older, I stopped believe in it because I realize life isn't like a movie. So then, I started to pushed people away from me because most of people that I know, they talk ''love'' that potty. I get really scared of getting hurt and I tried so hard to not fall in love with anyone because you know some people doesn't know what's love really mean. Yes,it's quaint really for a sixteen-years-old girl to talk about love but trust me, age is just a number and by looking at my parents and love birds out there , I know what love is. When I said 'I tried so hard to not fall in love with anyone' I know, the truth is I can't avoid being in love because eventually I will.

Mr.S

02 of November 2011, was a special day. Ayumi <3 Scharfero.
happy, sad, crying, fight, angry was a normal for a couple.
we've been 8 months 10 days.
after that, he broke up his relationship with me
and i can't stop crying
dear Scharfero, are you still remember this
" me JANJI me x akan break sama you walau apa pun berlaku."
you said this in a thousands times. and it makes me happy =D
you were right. i have to move on. even we're still together, we can't even get married.
<3
02.11.2011 till 10.07.2011
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING SCHARFERO
i will never forgt what have we been through
ALWAYS LOVE, MISS AND REMEMBER YOU
I Love You So much Scharfero Sakay.
take care of yourself.

Ford Model Supermodel of the World

19.feb.2011. today is the audition at magellan hotel, sutera harbour kota kinabalu sabah

had 16 or 17 girl/model are coming.

but, just 8 yg kena pilih..

so, sya memng confident sudah name saya kena sebut.. but NO!!!

teda.. Dato' Nancy maybe cuma pilih 170 cm ke atas. cuz semua pemenangnya tu tinggi2x.

but, Dato' ckp, klaw ada pengambilan model, maybe dia akn contact kami..

but syukur la aku dpt juga masuk that audition.. 

btw, kami semua masuk NTV7.. dunno bila di siar kan.

I LOVE TO BE A MODEL!!

anyone,who wnat to find some model, just choose me =p..

contact me at facebook.com

"Ayumi Cullen" 

                         XoXoxO , Ayumi <3