Perfection

Sometimes I wonder, if a girl really knows how pretty she is. Regardless of who she is/how she looks like. I mean, everyone has said it before, haven't they? "Everything has its own beauty." But does that really mean something? We strive each and everyday being all nutty about how we look. Without all the layers and layers of makeup and behind all those fancy clothes we sometimes aren't even able to afford. Because we are so fond of how we actually would want to look like. Something that is known to be the whole definition of perfect. Gorgeous straight hair, perfect body, amazing skin tone, beautiful face even without a touch of makeup, and not to mention, extremely long legs.

& to be honest, it was never that easy for me as well. I have days where sometimes I just hate myself because of how I look like in the mirror. More often than not, I don't see "pretty". And that's where all the endless shopping and long hours of getting ourselves ready to head out to town comes in and saves the day.

Thinking of it long and hard, what is really ugly is probably s o c i e t y, itself. It gets us wrapped into this ball of insecurity just when we think its fine to look how we look like. So, I say, society can go screw itself because everyone's beautiful. Yes, that might come out as cliche but lets put the truth out there for a second. Everyone has their own perspective of what is beautiful, yes? Well, here's a thought, being perfect is boring. Being different, on the other hand, is what makes you stand out from all the rest. So know that, you are beautiful. And noooo one, could tell you otherwise.

Put The Past Behind

I am terrified of what there is to come. Would the pain grow? Is it verging to become worst? I'm afraid of 
c h a n g e.The thought of it is enough to keep me feeling agitated. I was alone most of the time. Eating alone, singing alone & crying alone. I wouldn't want that, ever. I don't want to be forgotten.

I am frightened by the world. Yes, it made me what I am today. But I'm not sure if what I am is what I've always wanted to be. Because this time last year, I was a complete different person. I was more content. I was loud. I was crazy insane. I gave out loads of foolish grins, because there wasn't a thing to worry about. 

I am troubled, it's just as haunting. I am somewhat scared of something I'm not even fully aware of. I'm confused. But I guess it's time to grow up. It's time I grow up. It's time I learn from my mistakes. It's time I become wise and put the past behind me. Because it doesn't matter as much anymore. What matters lies ahead.

Stop and Stare

She caught him staring as she smiled charyly. Alarmed by the sudden eye contact, she looked away. She couldn't tell if he had feelings for her. Was he too shy to say? His mouth is moving, but all she heard was mumbles, bridle over, and jumbled up thoughts. This time she knew she had to say something. But who were they kidding. They were both just teenagers, who had their tongue tied on jibberish. The words they know would only come out cluttering. Fuck.

She would do anything to set the clock in reverse. It was obvious they were both into one another, yet neither of them wants to say it. She thinks there's another girl. And, well, for him, it's just vice versa. But is there really? Eventually that arousing feeling that was once there, wasn't anymore. And all they did was stop and stare on what could have been.

Continue To Love The Vast Blue Sky

If i had not met you that day, then i would not have experienced that pain and sadness, and memories filled with tears, But, if i had not met you, i would also have not experienced that joy, excitement, and memories filled with tears, But... if i had not met you, i would also have not experienced that joy, excitement, preciousness, happiness, and the feeling of absolute happiness. I continue to love the vast blue sky ♥

Life Must Move On

 

Being happy, angry, sad, cry, crazy, in love etc.. is just normal for a teen. A teen as young as me, must make the world believe that they're proud of you . Life is too short to be unhappy. There's so many things to do to be a successful person in our future. I know how it feels to be hurt, I know how it feels to be unacceptable . I've been through lots of it. Mothers always give their children an advice "do not having a boyfriend if you're still young unless you're already finish studying". I used not to hear what my mom said. I used to ignore all my mom's advice. But, years after years, it makes me realize that it's just un-matured and so childish. I started to agree with what my mom said. And begin a new life. It is not too late for you to change a thing in your life to make your dream come true. Doesn't matter where you from, How old are you, just ignore the haters. Put your head up take a deep breath and smile. Because you deserve what you have. Never look back what already past because Life Must Move On forward.

With Love ~

The Day After Tomorrow

Alright, moving on , you guys probably wondering why do I keep on deleting my blog and post? First of all, I wanted to delete my blog and stop writing because I honestly don't really have time to update and I'm pretty much out of idea of what to talk about but then there's some of my readers out there told me not to stop writing and they gave me some motivation. I gotta say,I am flattered cause I don't expect there's anyone out there would read story of my life. So, I decided to continue writing since I've been writing when I was younger and why should I stop now since writing is one my way to actually expressed myself . Secondly,  I've read my first post in my old blog and I wrote "I'm starting fresh" but honestly I don't really get the chance to start fresh because my heart still holding to something and I don't think I could ever let go. Therefore, I'm not gonna plan anything for my life anymore cause I got sick of planning especially to something that doesn't work out . So,I'm gonna let everything flow and be spontaneous because we don't know what's gonna happen tomorrow or the day after tomorrow .

                                                                                                                                                                              With love ~

Affection In Teen's Life

No matter how old we are, we all needs affection.I know I'm young but I know love. When I was younger, I've always believe in love. Well, blame it all on the books and movies for keep my expectations high on love. As I grow older, I stopped believe in it because I realize life isn't like a movie. So then, I started to pushed people away from me because most of people that I know, they talk ''love'' that potty. I get really scared of getting hurt and I tried so hard to not fall in love with anyone because you know some people doesn't know what's love really mean. Yes,it's quaint really for a sixteen-years-old girl to talk about love but trust me, age is just a number and by looking at my parents and love birds out there , I know what love is. When I said 'I tried so hard to not fall in love with anyone' I know, the truth is I can't avoid being in love because eventually I will.